Talidaga-Montrega

As usual with my longer journals quick stuff first and long life details after. Thank you for the bday wishes I defenetly need them. I'm getting back to a normilzed schedule had some med stuff and court stuff with my foster daughter, didn't get to keep her. I'm still drawing just very slowly after my unexpected burnout and slump. Hence why I didn't particpate in my usual secret santa stuff this year and holiday festivites, I usually do which brought some concerns from some of my friends on here and my couple of art trades and commissioners who have waited ever so patiently. I can't stress enough how thankful I am for yall's patientence. Yes I wasn't doing well and no it wasn't the rona. I've gotten better and working to learn a good schedule for myself. My only two goals for this year is to do some personal art for myself and a study once a week, if doing well might change or adujt things. I'll be finishing off my art commisions and trades first and foremost. and close commissions for a while or take very few. I'm on instagram as well now usually going to post once a week or so on there talidagam

and my other places https://linktr.ee/talidaga_montrega

That's the gist of things stay awesome dudes and peeps. No need to read more, the rest is wordy detail life crap.

Alrighty into the nitty gritty details of things just to vent and clear up things in more wordy details that most don't read but here it is for those that do read all the things. Shit hit the fan and snowballed after that, badly. I'll start with the foster daughter we found that she had gotten a hold a range of different drugs that were illegal and was selling them at school it got her suspended as it was her first offense at that school instead of expelled. She had claimed they were someone elses and that she had been set up which we wanted to believe but since we had access to some of her accounts on a phone that we were providing her through our computer had found several intances of her doing selfies with the drugs and making a bunch of points on her loving this money stuff she was doing. So we knew that she was lying and that it was serious. After we had grounded her and took her phone she made threats to kill herself or run away and we took those claims serious and brought them to our case worker and had her stay at one of with a trusted family friend that could always keep an eye on her and to see if there were any more drugs in the room we had her stay in.

Shortly before all this happened of this my service dog passed away unexpectedly at 6 years old which left me distraught and ragged. Appenetly she had died of something called Addisons disease which could happen to any dog at any age no matter the genetics as the vet explained to us. It's a immune disease that shuts down vitmens and such to all the different organs and parts of the body not a pleasent way to go or deal with.

Back to the case worker he was able to get the judge to have an emergency court hearing the next few days. He wanted to hear from the foster daughter first and she started making lies on how we treat her inhumanane and that we took her money that she worked for herself from four H fair which was amonth prior which is what she cliamed the money that the school took was from that and how we are both invading on her private life which we had no right towards and several other damaging lies. This tore my mate apart since he cared so much for us to be a family that she would be so horrendous and throw it back in our faces. Our case worker brought up our concerns and asked us to present our things that we were advised to search for. We brought up the drugs and the more that we found at home and since were concerned about self harm brought a journal that we found that she was unaware of that we brought and some of her pics and she was trying to exlaim that we had no right to read it nor go through her social media but the judge ignroed read through and looked over things in his back office with his advisors and came back with that the foster daughter get some mandated medical help for at the least 72 hours to a week to evaluate her self harm. Then to recovine after her evaluation. And to be police escorted there she left with our family friend was consoling her until she left and then, yes more to the snowball of shitery, the friend we'll call her Leia for a fake name. Leia was getting in to it was my mate and I how dare that we've done such things to the foster and even her journal which we should have given the foster warning that we were going to bring it at all. wait what back up apperently Leia had belived all the lies that the foster was telling in court and then some for the time that she was staying with her we told about the school and the pics and leia was disregarding all of it and told us that the pics should have been deleted andthat we can't tell by them that they're actally the foster or not and that it's our fault for going to a mental hospital for the foster that's not from her view suicdal. This family friend that we had grown to know and love for almost 4 years was conidered like family with her it was devastaing and not well taken by either myself ir my dear spouse.

At the recovine the foster was brought in and a guardian atlightum was appointed to speak on her behalf. After talking with our case worker beforehand my mate decided to not have our right as the foster's legal guardians any longer. Leia was there at court as well and we had spoken much since the preivous encounter. The judge listened to the gurdian guy and he said after talking with the case worker and us and on his own with the foster he brought up that our guardianship was to end and for it to transfer to Leia instead. That blindsided my spouse and I and now looking back on it should have fought it but we were both at our end and agreed to it as well. The foster was self harming and has mandated appointments with Leia and a family help therapist. Apperently afterwords the judge made a remark that the lies she told in court were the same lies that she accused her grandparents of 5 months before and didn't agree to them happening again to a volunteered couple such as my spose and I had. That would have been perfect information to have before agreeing to take her in at the start. So far the foster is over at Leia's still we're still in the same church area but the foster attends a different school since Leia lives right over the border in a different state. our area is about a 10 to 15 mile jaunt to the neighboring state so it's not uncommon to be tadah here in one state and tadah the next. Haven't had any good intereactions from our family friend we're all civil and unspeaking but not anywhere close to where we all were.

After all that went down. my spose and I haven't wanted to try for anything adopting again for a while and time goes by and he had a job change which changed our lif schedule to night owls, i like to up around the same time he's up even when he's away at work. I still am not able to get a service dog replacement and my therapist changed with her life stuff that occured but here in limbo to finally see the new person due to insuracne stuff and my depression hits hard and so too at the same time my PTSD that makes it near impossible to function healthly. my meds were still covered but my therapy wasn't so I was still able to have the medication I needed but something was wrong the dosage wasn't working fully any more and I was having more panic attacks and restless sleep and frequent episodes during any actual fatigued sleep they made me wake up & be in a stat reliving a flashback for a time. It made me and my spouse worried. We felt they were getting worse than they ever have been before. So scheduleing for an appiontment is much more stupidly longer with the pandemic and then the trial and error procces of what would help without being stoned to nothingness so much more tortureous and dragged on. Not to forget that I have a light form of asthema that makes all the more cation that I don't catch covid to the best of my ability. The meds to refill or pick up was easiy since they have adapted a drive through of sorts to safly get perscribitons at my health care place. Getting the appointments to confirm with the doctor and dose change and med change was long and streinous part. So far the last month has been well and better with some meds and diet changes working together. I still have panic attcks and epiosodes but they are dramaticly lot less frequent and more to how they were when I could better manage and process better.

So there word vomit of blah done I'm wanting to improve on my self and my work so setting a once a week goal seems managable and been able to art again after 2 months of nothing and the last 4 months an uphill struggle. I don't know how many others fully read this and but I try to keep my life stuff to myself or I feel self concioues of them and try to down play it cause I don't like to make others worry but it was a major thing .so some surpises of things I deal with such as my mental health but thought it was okay to air it out off my chest for now. I swear I never do try to make my journals long and wordy I will word fix and grammer stuff later. Thank you my dear friends again and I'm doing better now. Let's kick some ass with 2021 dudes and peeps.

Gotta do what I gotta do. I won't go into it just tight on funds currently. Here are some characters that I've put up for sale I don't have much but here.

https://toyhou.se/Talidaga/characters/folder:1251324

https://sta.sh/24onfuxrvuq?edit=1

I also have some leftover adopts here with an open YCH

https://www.deviantart.com/talidaga-montrega/gallery/43713724/adopts

I can also do Colored Headshots for $10 They will be similar to these. Can be painted or drawn. Shading will be $5 extra. If you guys can help by at least looking through thanks.

Heya dudes and peeps the last few months have been a roller coaster of emotions and events so I apologize to those that I was doing artwork with or for. I have cleared and finished my queue almost completely now and am grateful for the patience with me. The beginning of this year my husband and I have talked about adopting/fostering to add to our family well wtih corona and my mental health acting up it's been a struggle to even get out of bed most days. With me also having asthma I've shut myself in pretty much as well. We have just legally became guardians for a 16 year old near our area and she's already been through a 14 day probation before coming into our home. Quite the age jump for first parenting but right now things are well in this honeymoon stage but it has helped feel more complete having her with us as part of our family. It's only temporary for 6 months till our next court date and evaluation for permanent guardianship. So yeah crazy stuff over here Hope everyone is still being safe and whoever that dA hasn't pushed away are still struggling with this site along with me.

I do still plan on doing some artfight this year when it gets to that sugar vs spice. I'll hold out till the first click of the random button for my team as I enjoy the power of the random button. Stay awesome dudes and peeps.